1 Year Ago

At 7:15 in the morning I got a phone that would change our lives forever.  It was Pam from CCAI saying she had a file of a little girl who was looking for her mommy.  I started screaming and crying and people at work had no idea what was going on.  Pam said she would email the information along with a photo.  The second I got off the phone with her I called Big T and told him to get home and get home NOW!  He said that he got shivers and the hair on the back of his next stood up when he heard me say "We have a daughter!".  He called me when he got home and we opened the email at the same time.  Wow...just look at her!  We were both crying and laughing, talking over each other.  Good thing it was the second to my last day at work because I was useless!!  All I did was stare at this precious little girls picture.  The next few months flew by.  I started a new job, became a grandmother, and flew to China! 

God is so good!  He orchestrated this adoption from the little seed in my heart in 2005 to Big T saying yes, to the long wait, deciding on special needs, a new job, flying to China - everything!! 


"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."   Jeremiah 29:11

Little T Turns 3!!!

3 years ago, in a country far far away a young woman was in labor.  She dreamed of this day for 9 months, knew the pain she would go through and fought to bring her child into this world.  What did she think when she saw her daughter's face?  Was she married?  What did her husband think?  Were they upset that their child, the one they dreamed and talked about, was a girl?  What about her grandparents?  Her aunts and uncles? 

I have no doubt that Little T was loved when she was brought into this  world.  She spent 7 months with her family.  7 months of being cuddled, cooed to, loved.  7 months of hearing her mom and dads voices singing to her.  7 months of playing peek-a-boo with a face that she loved unconditionally. 

I sit here and think about what I was doing the day she was born.  I know we were still paperchasing for her.  China was slowing down in their referrals and I wasn't listening.  I looked back at my blog and see I was trying to think of another name for the blog.  Such trivial things when you think about it. 

I woke Little T up this morning by singing Happy Birthday to her.  She opened her eyes and smiled and blew like she was blowing out her candles.  Tonight we will celebrate this day with her.  Give her presents, cake, and ice cream but still, my mind wanders to a country half way around the world.  I'm thinking about her birth parents and what they are doing today.  Do they think about her?  Do they still mourn her?  Do they know how grateful we are?  I'm so humbled by them. 

Cuddling with Little T this morning, looking into her beautiful brown eyes, I smiled.  This little girl is such a gift to us.  She is smart, beautiful, happy.  She is loved.  Most of all, she is our daughter.  Happy Birthday to our sweet Little T!!!